Happy Spring, 1 year!
I think it's been a year since I started writing on this blog. I know it's some late day on March, can't be bothered to verify the exact date, but alas it's been a year!
So where I do I find myself a year later.. strangely writing personal and uninteresting stuff like at the beginning. I really made this journal as a personal "open" record, not really for public entertainment and I still hold to that. It has evolved more picturesque, because I didn't have a camera back then and I do now.
Now I have a video camera that I must learn to use, because I haven't learned and have found myself stuck at making more videos and I have to make a new video!
All I've been doing the past few days besides doing alot of laundry and eating for entertainment, has been researching the evils of a popular modern cult, well identified by the symbol "$", its founder, its current management, its techniques, etc.
Same ole shit, I go into fear and retreat into Virgo mode. My path in this life is to destructurize myself, to surrender to what is undefinable, intangible, ethereal, artistic and beautiful. To trust, to express myself with the abstract and absolute.
Only when I'm happy and confident I can do this, when I'm not, I do the opposite.. I start doing pointless "research", I start categorizing, defining, structurizing, critizicing, etc. It's what I know and brings me comfort, but gets me ultimately nowhere.
I've given myself the weekend to daze and justified it as days off. Monday is tomorrow and I'm determined to at least start with the camera. - I've not only gotten the camera but also a mini "tentacle" tripod and a big regular tripod. - These things make their way to me and cry out to be used.
As far as the Story Waters and Lee Harris recordings, I listened to the first one (it needs to be done at least after a week per cd) and fell asleep.. I don't know if I've done the work or not, so I'll just listen to it again and hope not to fall asleep again.
I am very happy however with the fact that the apartment is so clean and neat by the beginning of spring, instead of the usual dreadful spring cleaning at the near end of it. - Winter here is so cold and dark, that you can't even see dirt. I get so bummed and depressed I barely feel like doing anything and the place turns into a mess that the light of spring blatantly reveals as it comes..
Tien and Jack have been the cutest little couple since we put them together in their new cage. We took some toys out of the cage to give them more room and placed them somewhere else in the apartment so they can go and play during the day. They spend most of their time up on the lights though. But I think Jack is loosening up to us as time goes so it should eventually get pretty exciting.
Well, enough rambling.. Happy Spring! :)












































